It is hard to believe that it is 2011 already! Where did the time go, and is it going to continue at this speed? I hope not otherwise I will wake up tomorrow and find myself 80 years old. The troubling thing about a new year for me, is that with each passing year I feel as though I have not accomplished anything, or am any closer to figuring out what I want to do with my life. As of now, I still feel as though I am aimlessly floating around without getting any closer to a solution. I have had so many jobs, and have tinkered around with hobbies, and tried to go back to school, and all I have found out are the things I don't want to do. If you can't tell, I am somewhat frustrated by this. I feel that by this time in my life I should at least have some sort of direction to aim for. As it is, I am completely in the dark without the slightest illumination as to a way out. I guess this year will be another of trial and error to finding a direction to take in life. The most frustrating thing above all is when people ask what you want to do, and you are completely and totally devoid of any answer, and all you can do is give a slight embarrassed chuckle and say, "I don't know", with a weak smile. Hopefully, this year I will concur the "I don't know", or at least dispel some of the darkness that hangs over this subject. The hardest part in all this is knowing that God has a plan for my life, and I just need to be patient and wait for it, or I may be where I am supposed to be, even though it is not a desired position to hold for the rest of my life, only to be blazing the trail to the point to which I will arrive at a later date. When I think of this I am reminded of Jeremiah 29:11; "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Even if this years goes by in a blink of an eye, or if I come no closer in discovering a direction for my life, all is not lost, because life is more than finding the right job or a desired position in life, it is just a prequel to the life ahead.
You are where He wants you at this very moment and while that may change, He has a place for you there and people for you to touch and show Jesus to. I believe that you're in the same boat as most of us - the transition boat which is floating on the sea of questions...most of us don't know what we want to do forever with our lives, so you're not alone!!! Still praying for you!
ReplyDeleteYour father is still saying the same thing. "I don't know what I want to do." That is not to discourage you, but to just show you are not alone. I think I have been thinking a lot about this "what am I supposed to be doing with my life? where am I supposed to be? what is my purpose?, etc". I think the MAIN thing is to remember that we are on a journey on this earth that is leading us to our eternal home. So it does not really matter in the whole scheme of things what we are doing, but that we are living for God. That does not mean that we should not try to find some sort of niche while we are on the journey. I don't think I even yet I am doing what I like. I am just plodding along as I have no other choice. There is the huge plan that we are all a part of, and it is difficult sometimes to see where we are fitting in or the importance of being where we are at present. Prayers continue daily. Love you
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